Dear Thor!

How do you like my Sexy Voice?
Compliments of Ragweed
It's Deep...
It's Raspy...
And, Oh God, is it Nasty!

My Breath is Hott!
My Eyes are Glassy
My Nose...a Rosy Pink
My Lips Protrude with a Swollen Glare

Am I Doin' It For Ya?
Am I Lifting Your Spirits?
Your Member?
Your CONQUISTADOR?

Can You See Us?

There We Are...
All Alone in the Oasis
Surrounded by Palm Trees,
Cacti and Wild Coyotes
Soulmates Colliding
In Darkness...
Wading in Sync...
Intoxicated By Warm Waters
Soothing Winds
And Mounds...And Mounds
Of Hott Sand Dunes

Sweet Dreams Dear Thor!
Dream While You Can!
For I Absolutely Adore You!

Trouble-maker

The Constant Disfigurement was Painful and Humiliating
Everyday was a Cold, Dark Wedding
"something old...something new...something(time) borrowed...
and definitely, something blue"
A Physical Battle Coupled with Mental Exhaustion
Overwhelmed her Sacrificial Young Life
Which Way Could She Turn
To Avoid New Strap Marks on Her Face?
Which Bone Would She Contribute
To the Rage?
Running Away Only Ignited
The Sick and Monstrous Acts of Daddy
Hair was Lost
Minds were Lost
Orders to Keep Quiet
Were Engraved in Her
Fragile Little Mind
Screaming Out Loud
Only Invited Excruciating
Out of Body Trauma
So...
She Screamed
Quietly...
To Herself
While Lying on the
Cluttered Floor
Of Her Shared Closet

Homemade Dresses Weren't Long Enough
To Cover up the Multi-colored Welts
That Laced Her Tender Little Limbs
Yet, She Prayed and Prayed
No One Would Discover
Her Swollen and Disfigured Face

"Maybe the Swelling will go down
Before the Bell Rings"

Teachers Kept Her in the Corner
And Away From the Other Kids
She was an Outcast
From the Beginning
Kindergarden was The Beginning of The End
Social Skills Were Lost Forever
Recess was Spent Indoors
Facing the Chalkboard
Standing, Alone

"Look at the Welts on That Girl...
She Must be a Bad Seed.
I Don't Want That Trouble-maker Anywhere Near My Kids.
She Needs To Learn How to Behave Herself
And Listen to Her Parents."

According to Me...

Rain...Rain...Rain
According to the Weatherman...
Rain, Today
Rain, Tomorrow
Rain for the rest of the week
According to Me...
Sunshine!!!
I have been Showered
With Gobbs and Gobbs of Sunshine
And Now, My Soul
Is Gleaming!
My Heart is Racing!
And My Eyes are
Dancing with Laughter!
Days will be Brighter
As My Mind Bathes
And Forgives
Even the Tiniest of
Toxic Matters
My Soul
Is at Peace
And It can Rain, Everyday
For the Rest of My Life
And Nothing,
Or No One
Can Steal the Magic
I have found
While carefully Embracing
Mr. Sunshine
He's on My Face
He's in My Heart
And, Now
I am Free!
Free to Live...
Free to Love...
And, Finally
Free to Fly!

I Just Have To Get Used To "Empty".

Why did you touch me?
Why did you even look my way?
I'm not your type!
And I never was.

Because of You...
I Dream...
I Write...
I Long...
And it hurts.

Because of You...
The Sun Shines Brighter
The Wind Feels Better
And the Flowers appear More Beautiful.

I can't stop wondering what a day With You would feel like.
I can't stop yearning for you to Touch me, again.

But, we both know it'll never happen.
I guess that's why my Heart hurts all the time.

I just have to get used to "empty".

I get so angry at myself for wanting you and daydreaming of a life with you.
Deep down, I Know it's just a Dream...a far fetched...who do you think you're kidding...Dream!

Everyday, I drag myself out of bed, give myself a false sense of hope and try to hold all of the crumbly pieces of my life together.
But then the "Wind blows" and I can see an entirely different life for myself...happy...giddy...and free.

I want to be someone else.
I want to be someplace else.

I just want to start over!

Because of you...
I'm Torn...
I'm Stronger...
And I'm absolutely Out of My Mind!

Hey Doc!!!

Hey Doc!!!
Can you Please remove this huge, intangible lump from my throat?
It's extremely annoying and I can't seem to swallow.
Customers are starting to complain.
And the iron chains just don't fit the way they used to.
Skipping meals is, definitely not an option.
I really need your help.
It's getting worse with every passing day.(and night)
I have tried everything...Meditation...Medication...Morfation
And Nothing!
This damn lump is even affecting my vision.
I haven't been able to see two feet in front of me for months!
Everything's a blurr.
I don't know what to do, anymore.
My head says "Don't falter!(anymore than usual) Stay on this road!(or close to it) Keep moving forward!(if you ever decide to move at all)"
But, my Heart-filled Past keeps calling out to me.
And I just want to tackle Him...Full Force!
He's my Soul-mate and I want all of him.
The Good...The Bad...and The Funny!
Hell! I'd even take The Ugly if he had any.
But, he doesn't.
He's Beautiful...through and through.
He's a Dog lover!
And I want every bit of him.
I want to share my life with him.
My thoughts...my desires...even...my pain.
But, The World is just not co-operating.
Hence, The Lump in my throat.
So, if you can help me,
I'd like to get started, right away!
My Life is waiting.


(signed)
Love-sick patient in Limbo

p.s.While I'm waiting, do you think you could write me a prescription for this nagging Heart Pain I have...just to tie me over? It really hurts when I dream.

Excuse Me!

Excuse me!
I know you're extremely popular,
But could you help me?
I'm searching for an answer...
An Answer of Truth...My Truth.
You see, I have this Path problem
And I would prefer not share it
With just anyone.
I want to work with the Best.
And you're reputation precedes you.
It's Huge!
Your silent domination
Excites and entices
Even those not fortunate enough
To have met with such a
Powerful Entity.
Let's face it!
You are the Biggest Force I know!
Every Human Being out there...
Dead or Alive
Has had some sort of
Meaningful relationship
With Your Grace.
Women love to carry you
Close to their heart...
Just above their
Desired attributes(gifts).
And Men feel the need to sketch your face
As they stare out of clad iron gates
Awaiting their tumultuous freedom.
I, for one, prefer
Tiny, inconspicuous momentos.
So, what do you say?
Buds???